Sometimes I find it crazy to believe that someone such as myself could be experiencing depression. At age 26. Why now? What has led to this? How can I overcome it and still be a good parent to my son? These are all questions that I ask myself.
It’s been three months since the signs started to show. Well to the outside world moreover. I became more withdrawn, moody, wearing excessive make up than usual, my home became cluttered which should have been a huge sign particularly for someone who seemed to have bouts of OCD lol
Then came the somewhat meltdown…
Up to now I have no recollection of what triggered the depression but what I do know is that I WILL overcome it and am on the road to healing myself internally. I am doing this by attempting to release all issues from my past such as rape, experiencing a stillborn, mental and physical abuse in past relationships. Not only that but also having to deal with other peoples insecurity through immediate dislike to ones self because of how I am aesthetically and talking about me which over time subconsciously affected my self-esteem and self-confidence and categorically in my opinion led to my downward spiral.
What I hope to achieve as to why I decided to start this blog pretty much detailing my depression though I will be including other topics or thoughts rather is because depression affects millions of people worldwide besides myself in some instances you may not even realise that you’re actually suffering from depression. Or are aware, but simply do not wish to come to terms with that fact due to the stigmatisation that surrounds depression.